Sometimes I am just ugly in a beautiful way
Hi peeps, I am back again with my ramblings.
Today I looked in the mirror and realised “Woah, I sure am ugly” LOL
I know you probably thinking “BDD (Body Dimorphic Disorder) Alert! BDD alert!” But honestly, I look in the mirror and I have a different expectation of what I will see. I hope to see a light skinned girl, with no dark marks, cute pink lips, with gorgeous lustrous hair and a... wait for it... an English nose! *blush* But what do I get? Me!*sigh* My girls tell me all the time that I am pretty, even random people I meet on the street tell me I am pretty, but I don’t know what goes on in my mind that leads me to think I am not. I don’t have a low self-esteem, I don’t have major insecurities and I am definitely not a BDD patient.
I must tell you, I am the most confident person you will ever find. I don’t feel the need to hide my face or put huge amounts of make-up, but I do deal with those minor insecurities! I don’t know if it’s just me or a lot of girls suffer that. I think at this point it doesn’t matter how beautiful I become, I think I have been cursed with the gift of NOT seeing it! LOL (Whatever that means) I do sense I am not ugly, I just dot think I know or understand my beauty!
Or maybe, I am just humble [Laughing My ass Off] *and fading away from my nonsensical mind*
So yeah, under all that placidness and confidence is the insecurity of hoping that I looked like Beyonce (bloody perfect b*tch) LOL.
Hi peeps, I am back again with my ramblings.
Today I looked in the mirror and realised “Woah, I sure am ugly” LOL
I know you probably thinking “BDD (Body Dimorphic Disorder) Alert! BDD alert!” But honestly, I look in the mirror and I have a different expectation of what I will see. I hope to see a light skinned girl, with no dark marks, cute pink lips, with gorgeous lustrous hair and a... wait for it... an English nose! *blush* But what do I get? Me!*sigh* My girls tell me all the time that I am pretty, even random people I meet on the street tell me I am pretty, but I don’t know what goes on in my mind that leads me to think I am not. I don’t have a low self-esteem, I don’t have major insecurities and I am definitely not a BDD patient.
I must tell you, I am the most confident person you will ever find. I don’t feel the need to hide my face or put huge amounts of make-up, but I do deal with those minor insecurities! I don’t know if it’s just me or a lot of girls suffer that. I think at this point it doesn’t matter how beautiful I become, I think I have been cursed with the gift of NOT seeing it! LOL (Whatever that means) I do sense I am not ugly, I just dot think I know or understand my beauty!
Or maybe, I am just humble [Laughing My ass Off] *and fading away from my nonsensical mind*
So yeah, under all that placidness and confidence is the insecurity of hoping that I looked like Beyonce (bloody perfect b*tch) LOL.
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