Me Expressed

Not only are words expressed through words

But through Mind, Body and Soul

Our inner-most feelings evoked by experiences, challenges, pasts...

And everything this life has lead us into.

The comparisons I've chosen, are those I have chosen in my life's path.

Roads I've tread on,

Decisions I've made

and so the trail of my life will remain

In existance of me

And those who choose to follow it's History.

The passion of words and the manner in which I choose to place them.

-Zoe Maphala

MY SECOND AND FINAL NAME

Sometimes I am just ugly in a beautiful way!

Sometimes I am just ugly in a beautiful way


Hi peeps, I am back again with my ramblings.
Today I looked in the mirror and realised “Woah, I sure am ugly” LOL
I know you probably thinking “BDD (Body Dimorphic Disorder) Alert! BDD alert!” But honestly, I look in the mirror and I have a different expectation of what I will see. I hope to see a light skinned girl, with no dark marks, cute pink lips, with gorgeous lustrous hair and a... wait for it... an English nose! *blush* But what do I get? Me!*sigh* My girls tell me all the time that I am pretty, even random people I meet on the street tell me I am pretty, but I don’t know what goes on in my mind that leads me to think I am not. I don’t have a low self-esteem, I don’t have major insecurities and I am definitely not a BDD patient.

I must tell you, I am the most confident person you will ever find. I don’t feel the need to hide my face or put huge amounts of make-up, but I do deal with those minor insecurities! I don’t know if it’s just me or a lot of girls suffer that. I think at this point it doesn’t matter how beautiful I become, I think I have been cursed with the gift of NOT seeing it! LOL (Whatever that means) I do sense I am not ugly, I just dot think I know or understand my beauty!

Or maybe, I am just humble [Laughing My ass Off] *and fading away from my nonsensical mind*

So yeah, under all that placidness and confidence is the insecurity of hoping that I looked like Beyonce (bloody perfect b*tch) LOL.